and for some more bad news :(

Well we went for our 12 week scan on Friday and things didn't go so well. We found out that I had a blighted ovum which meant that the baby hadn't grown past about 6-8 weeks so there was nothing to see on the ultrasound of course...there was no baby.

Please don't be too sad for us I am OK about it. I truly believe that nature works the way it does for a reason and this was the best thing if things weren't going as they should. I also believe that there isn't a 'baby' until some time at least until12 weeks so I don't feel like I have lost a baby, there was no real attachment yet. Don't get me wrong it is upsetting and I have been upset but I suppose at the same time I am sure that nature is working the way it should.

Anyway I woke up in pools of blood yesterday, great start to Mother's Day, it was OK because we were expecting it. I have to say any of you girls who have been through that unexpectedly my heart goes out to you because I can imagine how horrible it would be if you were not expecting it. In my case it is kind of good because as it is going now I probably won't need further medical intervention which is a good thing.

So we can start trying to get pregnant again straight away which I think we will do because we really don't want too much of a gap between the kids and there is no reason why there should be any further problems. I have the next couple of days off work and after that I will see how I go. I say that I feel OK but I am not sure how I will cope if I need to be emotionally strong about anything that may happen at work. At the moment this is a bit of an issue as things aren't great at work at the moment but that is another story.

So hopefully I will see you all on Friday if not before if anyone is looking for something to do. I am always up for a coffee and a chat! On a lighter note I chopped all my hair off last week and I love it. I have even washed it since going to the hairdressers and i still love it!

Hugs and kisses to all
Manda